I'll let go

"I can see now more clearly what my friends were trying to say, at first I didn't notice that it was true but thanks to what you did I finally realize that I really hold on to the worst relationship ever."

Echos lang! pede na pang-drama na no? hahaha! but the truth is yeah it's a little bit heart breaking what happen between me and her,after 3 years of laughing and some crying, then ended up in breaking. It's okay, I'm used to it, at first it will really hurt a lot, like hell, d@mnnn! moving forward is hard to initiate. There were times people thought that I'm okay specially my family but I'm not, almost everyday of the week,I feel that stabbing pain in the chest, the warm gastric juice going up your stomach then into you chest, then it stays there  for a couple of minutes, minutes that feels like days, then days that turns in to weeks and so on, and so on. I   really don't know what to do,I curl up in my bed not crying but trying to fill up the empty feeling in my chest, imitating a position of a fetus inside a mother's womb. Ouch! Ouch! Ouch!

I really feel stupid crying, as if isa ako sa mga artista sa soap opera, natawa na nga lang ako, nung nakita kong naka titig aso kong malaki mata saken e habang nag eemote ako, syeett hinde talaga ako pang drama talaga , kainis! sa mga ganitong pagkakataon gusto ko yakap talaga, as in mahigpit na yakap! hinde ko pinag sisisihan na sya pinili ko maski masama ugali nya, ewan ko siguro nga head over heals lang ako sa kanya, but when you hit the wall and realize that everything is tumbling down  and the foundations that you built isn't going to hold any longer, I say you jump, jump before everything you strive for falls into pieces, cause once your back at the bottom, you can still save the pieces that you can catch.